Confessions

Warning! I'll be complaining a lot in this post so feel free to skip it!

Steve just found out he'll be leaving January 4th for Liberia for 6 months. He will be one of 15 Marines joining other branches to train the Liberian Army. He'll leave just a little over a month after he gets back in another 3 1/2 weeks. I think this will be a tough deployment on both ends. The kids are at ages where it's very difficult to understand where daddy is. He has only been gone a week now, and it has been tough. Bedtime especially. Everything is just different. Noah has become more non compliant, and Avery has developed a new level of attitude. My tire blew out yesterday while driving, and I don't know how to change it (I need to learn). It all would have been an easy situation had Steve been there. But instead it was complicated. Everything's fine now, but little things (like car problems left and right! After all, we had to junk our two cars we got less than a year ago) like that worry me. And I will worry about Steve...so much that I think I try and let the little things bother me on purpose so I don't think about the "big" problems.   A good friend told me that your family just survives deployments, you don't strive at all. And it's true. It's not good for our family. I do try and stay busy, but it's hard not having a break. And adjustments can be hard when he gets back as well.
I also wonder how we'll make it back to Ohio. I've heard of another lady who was stuck somewhere for 7 days trying to Space A. My other friend had to stay in a hotel somewhere and wake up at 3:00 AM to catch an $80 taxi ride to the airport only to find out that she couldn't get on that flight. So it's the same thing the next day. A lot can go wrong when you space A. Especially since I won't be with Steve (more priority), and I'll have two kids that, as of late, have not shown me they are at all ready to make a potential week long trip back. Plane tickets are running at about 1500 each. There's a lot to think about. My brain is on overload after this week. I better go rest up. Trick or Treating is just 3 nights away.=) If you're still here thanks for listening to me ramble. I feel better now.=)